Lost in self
Prompt: “The hardest part of being still” assignment was about creating a self portrait and also generate a mood towards the viewer. We were given the freedom to choose the medium and the theme that we wanted for this project we just had to show a story with our portraits.
For my piece, I knew from the beginning that I wanted to show a theme that was personal to me but also can be relatable for the viewer. So I decided to talk about quarantine and my experience during this time. Because of the deadly virus COVID-19, the world was confined to stay in their homes not being able to do things as we normally did. Like most people, I did not do well staying put at home I grew to have anxiety most of the time worrying about friends, family, and how the world would get out of this conundrum. Thoughts began to seep into my head, and my own home began to look like an asylum and I was the mad patient. I started to lose myself and soon I didn’t recognize the person I was. The things that made me who I was were separated and ripped apart, lost in space.
For the portrait, I wanted to bring out that feeling of turning into someone new and changing, so I illustrated two portraits of myself one transforming into the other. I also used orange for the fingertips and the line marking on the shirts because orange is said to represent insanity and madness. And I sketched the two portraits using graphite pencil because I’ve never used pencil for big pieces before so I wanted to experiment and see where it would take me.